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hee!~ i guess things for us should be getting better le ba... => he wanna have his freedom so i also dun wish to call him often... maybe 1 or 2 times a day will do... but i think lidat the conversation evrytime will be much livelier rather then bored.... hee!~ hmmm.. every relationship has its ups and downs ... n i learnt that perhaps this is our down time for the time being and soon we will be even better... hehe!~ counting the days to his ORD day... hehe... still rem how he promised to let me be the most xing fu woman in the world... haha...he used to sae that he couldn't be able to treat me like our other guys would be able to treat their girlfrens as they could afford the time cos they are not in the aRMy, n he said that if he ORD le ... he cud treat me even better then them... so no use comparing de ma... hehe... yeah!!! i so happy that he'll be an ordinary person hahaha........ waiting the day whereby i cud be the "cinderella" whahaha... *CouNtIng....* BleAhzzz
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[18:52]
LoGoNg Zai.... Miss ya so mucHieee... haha.. now eating the "pak Lai" ... used to eat it so often with ya... hehe... miss it so muz eat to Hui wei yi xia... hehe... hopefulli this Sat u could pei me man... Shuo hao we going to Zoo... alwaes sae wanna go then never go de.. hee.. this time we go k... hmm... anyway this Sat marks the new beginning of the year ... we go celebrate with gorillas n monkeys... wahhaa... k?? Friday u go countdown ba... :>hehe... i also wanna go watch "meet The Fuckers" hahaha.... i mean "FoCkerS" ... muz pei me watch k??? so long never hao hao de go out as a couple le... hee!~ waiting for Sat to cum ... xi wang wun be disppointed again... =>
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[17:22]
wad a day to spend... wed so bored.... all alone at hm ... nth to do... dunno wad should i do lehz..... i surf internet for the whole day le... buay sianzzz ah... I Muz tthink of something better man... hahaha.... go ZzZZzZzZzzzz... BEst!!! cos think onli today can nua nia... otherwise sch realli start le den jialat... stress.....
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[16:35]
Hmmm...today manage to get to tok to dear dear for bout' 1/2 hr... i'm so happy that i'm able to tok to him... hehe!!~~ i found back the excited feeling when waiting for his call... and i was so happy to receive his call.. WAHaAHa...so xing fen...!!!
YeaH!!! i did manage to be entertaining enufff so that our conversation was not boring... n indeed i enjoyed this conversation.. trying to catch up on wat we've lost... wonder if he feels the same way too... hehe!!~
i'm so excited that i've finish designing this natasha beddingfield blog n managed to get my tagboard up again... or else pple cant see the msgs juzt like last time... hehe!~ paisEh man... so busy to edit the template... hehe...but now aft finish designing the template.... i think i'll have not much time to design anywayz....wonder if i'll hv the time to blog oso... but i'll try my best man... hee...
eH...2nd day of sch onli n i experienced so much break man... so tired to wait thru the long break time n onli attend a 50 mins lect... so bo liao rite... wait so long end up... i didn't learn anything today... cos ... i'm 1/2 asleep cos... I SimPly Dun UnDerStand Man.... Wah... the IEM lecturer quite big shot worz.... haha... Vice PrESIdEnt of MiZuHo bank lehz... gd catch sia... hahahaha.... too bad... too old for me le... wahAHa... ar Bo can Be TaI TaI le... hahahah...
haiz... i can feel that this week may be abit slack... seems like break bery long but... this sem is veri tied up so i guess next wk onwards the break time wud not be enuff to do tut... study n even do projects man...
Muz realli cherish this week... but it's the last sem... muz Jia You...!!!! GaMbAtE Neh!!! Twist...hee!~
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[23:37]
haiz... realli so SiaNzz man... dun wish to think of it anymore... :> i'm trying to keep myself busy and not to think about other things le... i'm trying to give in... tyrying to change myself for him... i still wanna treat him good... although he's not the same dar dar i noe initially... but i do love him...
maybe everyone has a different way of loving someone... i dunnoo... i hope to be positive myself... think positive... regardless of the change he had... i miss my EX-dear dear alot... i miss the way he treat me... so sweet... so caring... so thoughtful... i love how he misses me...i love the way he sound so anxious when i went to Genting and never called him when we r together for a few wks only, i love to hear him grumble about "wah... sianz... mux go back camp le" ... i love to hear him share his problems with me... i love him when he alwaes call me without any reason... jus when he feel like calling he'll call... n i can feel tat he misses me....i love toking on the phone with him... even if he's busy, he'll make time for me.. i love him hogging on the phone even he's playing risk or gameboy wif his campmates... just love the way he treats me last time...
but all these things have been in the past...my dear dear is no longer the person i knew... i haben been reallli toking to him ... he began spending more time wif his frens... i'm insecure.... i dun understand why he dun wish to meet me le... dun wish to call me... dun wish to tok or msg... he wishes to have his freedom... ok... i'm willing to change...i asked him if he finds me ma fan when i msg or call him... he ask me not to call that often... ok... no prob..!!! i try not to call him that often... rather... i'll wait for his calls.... but who noes... i dun call him ... he'll not call or msg me one...
this makes me feel so lousy...i can't even be compared with his frens... can u imagine??? when u missed someone... u juz wanna call him to find out how he's doing? listen to his voice..tok to him share ur day with him... but he jus have no time for ya... hmmmm.... maybe thinking on the postive side...(he's just too busy with his work) =) i hope so... maybe thinking bout' it this way could make me feel better...
i used to meet him at least alternate days when he get to lights off on tues n thurs and he wud initiate to come meet me... or even gave me surprises to pop by... :> he love to eat the zhu zha tang near my place... hee... he eat buay sianz de..we wud tok on phone everyday.. so i think we dun hv any comm breakdown... i noe bout his daily stuff ... he'lll update me...
but now............. we hardli tok ...i dunno his whereabouts or matters bout him... dunno him well... what he's doing... i dun dare to call him... i'm afraid of calling and msging him... i scared he'll be pissed off... isn't a relationship based on trust, commitment and love??? wad's a relationship when u have no communication, have fear, have to think carefully even if u wanna call to hear his voice??? shouldn't calling ur bf up to sae u miss him a natural thing to do???
maybe now that he doesn't hv lights off makes us drift further... or maybe our relationship is not strong enuff for us that we dun understand each other well even aft 1yr...relationship shud be a 2-way commitment... onli 1 person alone wking on the relationship wud not make a r/s work out!! haizzz.... i think if i wud wanna change ... things will nv be the same again already... the feelings last time are all gone... i wanna change my attitude... for him... but he dun seem to be like last time oso...if he's still the bf i known last time, i think he'll help me along the way i'm changing...
last wk... fri n sat... xmas eve n xmas itself... he wanna spend it with his frens... ok... by all means... i sae i wnana change so i wud not have any disagreement wif him that he chose to celebrate his xmas with his frens.... n i go all the way down to beauty world to find him to let him see his xmas gift... i insist on meeting him for 5 mins...jus to pass him the prezzie...cos it's meant to be a xmas gift so i wanted him to see it on christmas...even if we broke off on wed, i'll still meet him to give it to him....
i'm glad tat aft the 5 mins, he still pei me awhile for an hr ba... haiz... the whole wk... i onli got to see him for like bout 3 hrs... we dun even had a chance to spend time together as a couple...haiz... i'm sad that why things have becum like this...???? we spend less than 1 hr toking on phone... but time doesnt mean anything... i noe!!! i noe that even if we r like b4 ... toking on 5 mins on phone wud mean alot to us... we cherish every moment we r together...
haiz... i dunno how to express my true feelings even in words... maybe things written aren't wad i supposed to convey as well...anyway... i dread the feeling i have now... i felt tat i'm such a failure in r/s... he's the onli guy whom i've done so much for yet he cant feel the love for him...n is not satisfied with the wya i'm loving him... ........(i'm at a lost) realli... HELP!!!!!!!!! ahhhhh!!!!!
i haben been toking to him the whole day... even if i do now... i dunno wad to sae to him oso.. different.. differet le... sObZzz...SoBzzz....Hur ... HuR....
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[22:22]
haha... today marks the 1st day of my last sem man... yeah... alrite la today... quite a stupid day lo... with such a long break... 6 hrs leh... hee... wah lao... wad the hell come back home ... study onli 8-10... den come hm... rest till 3+ hv to go back sch again... n it's so stupid... onli 45 mins... hahahaha.... den go back home le...
worst is for brenda man.. stay Jurong have to come all the way here den study 45 mins gotta go back again... so cock... haha... but study realli keeps me occupy... dun let me think so much... i dun wish to think n get sad over certain things either...
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[22:13]
haiz... so ke lian... things are getting worser... seeing the news that theres a major earthwuake happening in Indonesia and affecting so many countries... haiz... such natural disasters are so terrible... but who wud expect such things to happen... hopefully it'll not affect Singapore... :>
haiz... why suddenly like so many things happen lidat... 911, SARS, Nicoll Highway collapse, bird flu, etc.... all these things we r able to overcome, i really hope they cud overcome all these diosasters man...
i pray that everything will be fine for them... things will get better soon... and i pray for World peaCe... =)may god bless us....
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[22:07]
wow... today is christmas eve... n it marks the last day of my IPP... hee!~ happy but alittle sad also.. cos i met alot of new frens... n now i'm gonna leave them... but i'll still keep in contact with them.. yeah!!! but rest 2 days going back to school liao... for my last sem... must nu li....
my 1st year celebrating ... exchanging gifts during christmas... xmas--> a day to share your love to pple... haha....
although few days back kinda very sad cos troubled by some relationship thingy.....but wonder if things kinda get better now?? hmm... hope so... yesterday my bf just told me he went to read my blog... oh my god.. i tot he will never go and read mine cos he dun read blogs de...
hmmm...but aniways... i also dunn y i'll sae such stuff 3 days back ba... hmmm... maybe due to some mood swings problem... hmmm... pls understand k?? i realli wish we cud be
maybe cos of all these tiffs that you also not willing to care that much for me le... u r restricting urself into falling deeper or wad lo... but i realli feel that last time you realli love me so so the much man... geezz....cant even think of something which is bad from u... but now...not saying that u not gd la... but
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[11:07]
What I Adore________
Food:-->ChiNese CuisIne (Home-Cooked)
What I Hate_________
People:-->GUyS who DoeSn't AppReCiATe WaD Gals Did for them and Tk Them For GRaNTeD...
WheN i WiSh UpoN a StaR_____
- MP3 PlaYer (IpoD Nano)
--> Jap Food (SusHi, YoShiNoYa, MoS BurGEr, torI Q)
--> KorEan FooD... (the Octopus one)
Drinks:--> LiQuoR
--> CoKe, LeMon TeA, Mango Tea, apple Tea
Pastimes:-->ToUChIng & Romantic MoViEs N ShOws
-->Shopping
-->PeaCeful & CalminG SeA BreeZe..
-->Listening to MusIc... PerFecT 10... Yeah!!!
People:-->frendly...
--> Good, Caring and not Hypocrites..
ThinGs: --> DiAMonDs....
--> Money...
--> Cars...
--> Apartment (PeNtHouSe preferably, ConDo) WoHoHo...
So Realistic Hor?? but who cares...LiFe's Like That!~*TsK*
-->LiArs....
-->HyPoCrItEs...
ThinGs: --> StUdY...
--> WorKinG...
Food:--> FaSt FooD...Find it very SiAnz...
- Cut & DyE Hair...
- ExiLim Camera BatTery
- Class 3 Licence (hoping to pass my Advance TheorY soon...when i have time)?
- TraVeling with FreNs--->> H0nG K0Ng, Taiwan, Thailand, Malaysia...All Asia Countries 1st(can Shop and EaT!!! I Like
!!!)
- AuStraL|a study and Play...
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